I FAIL!

Hello everyone!

Yes... I am alive! Ok, so I realize that I completely FAIL at BEDA. My boring life decided to finally get insteresting this week. Kind of stinks... I mean on the one hand it was good to actually hang out with people IRL, but I missed all of my kreepers and everyone in the Skype chat! BEDA is now, obviously, out of the question... but I'm going to keep posting here. I definitely won't be able to post every day, but don't think that I've given up all together either!

Alright, life update time!

SOOO school starts this coming week for me... ugh. I have orientation Monday and then school starts on Wednesday. My junior year... I honestly cannot believe it. At times I feel like I'm so much older than I am (compared to the people I go to school with, I mean), but really... two years have gone by so fast!

Everyone talks about how much has changed since freshman year, but not so much has changed for me. I am still the same person that I was last year, the year before that, and the year before that too... I have so many friends who are completely differet people. Things that they swore they would never do a year ago are now no big deal. It makes me wonder... will that happen to me one day, because at the moment I really don't want it to. Unfortunately, because of this whole changing thing I have lost some of my best friends. And you know... that's really a bummer. Yes... I realize that I have been complaining A LOT lately. And I'm sorry... really, but ummm I kinda need to vent. And for some reason it's much easier to vent to you guys. I mean, part of it is definitely that I can't actually see you... so it's easier to talk without worrying about being rejected. But also, I just feel like I can really talk to all of you! I mean today I signed into Skype for the first time all week. I had been stressing about this because I thought that everyone would be, I don't know, mad at me or something. Instead, they immediately started an arguement about who had missed me the most :) I don't think I need to explain how good that feels!

But anyway, summer is over :( And I am really sad. And to make it worse I still haven't read ANY of my summer reading books. And with two AP, one Dual Enrollment, and the rest Honors classes that's A LOT! So... I'd better get on that!

In other news... I feel like I've been living someone else's life lately. I mean I went to a party, I've been hanging out with people all week and getting home LATE, and a boy likes me. NONE of those things ever happen to me. To be honest, I'm a bit of a deer in the headlights right now. But, I'm trying to go with the flow... so far it's well it's the best I have. Slowly going out of my computer comfort zone. BUT that doesn't mean I'm forgetting about all of my computer friends!

GRRRR^^^ no one cares Ali, STOP TALKING! Ummm... I haven't been hungry lately, which is really unusal for me. OH and also...I'm going to California next week for my cousin's wedding so yeah the BEDA thing wouldn't have worked anyway. I got a new dress though, and it's PRETTYYY and shoes *sigh I love shoes! Well I think that's enough for today.

I love you all!
Ali

P.S. Shout out to everyone in the Skype chat... thanks for being awesome! WOO WOO

Skype chat quote of the day: everyone missing me in general :)"I MISSED YOU MORE!" "NO I MISSED HER MORE!"