Hello everyone!
Yes... I am alive! Ok, so I realize that I completely FAIL at BEDA. My boring life decided to finally get insteresting this week. Kind of stinks... I mean on the one hand it was good to actually hang out with people IRL, but I missed all of my kreepers and everyone in the Skype chat! BEDA is now, obviously, out of the question... but I'm going to keep posting here. I definitely won't be able to post every day, but don't think that I've given up all together either!
Alright, life update time!
SOOO school starts this coming week for me... ugh. I have orientation Monday and then school starts on Wednesday. My junior year... I honestly cannot believe it. At times I feel like I'm so much older than I am (compared to the people I go to school with, I mean), but really... two years have gone by so fast!
Everyone talks about how much has changed since freshman year, but not so much has changed for me. I am still the same person that I was last year, the year before that, and the year before that too... I have so many friends who are completely differet people. Things that they swore they would never do a year ago are now no big deal. It makes me wonder... will that happen to me one day, because at the moment I really don't want it to. Unfortunately, because of this whole changing thing I have lost some of my best friends. And you know... that's really a bummer. Yes... I realize that I have been complaining A LOT lately. And I'm sorry... really, but ummm I kinda need to vent. And for some reason it's much easier to vent to you guys. I mean, part of it is definitely that I can't actually see you... so it's easier to talk without worrying about being rejected. But also, I just feel like I can really talk to all of you! I mean today I signed into Skype for the first time all week. I had been stressing about this because I thought that everyone would be, I don't know, mad at me or something. Instead, they immediately started an arguement about who had missed me the most :) I don't think I need to explain how good that feels!
But anyway, summer is over :( And I am really sad. And to make it worse I still haven't read ANY of my summer reading books. And with two AP, one Dual Enrollment, and the rest Honors classes that's A LOT! So... I'd better get on that!
In other news... I feel like I've been living someone else's life lately. I mean I went to a party, I've been hanging out with people all week and getting home LATE, and a boy likes me. NONE of those things ever happen to me. To be honest, I'm a bit of a deer in the headlights right now. But, I'm trying to go with the flow... so far it's well it's the best I have. Slowly going out of my computer comfort zone. BUT that doesn't mean I'm forgetting about all of my computer friends!
GRRRR^^^ no one cares Ali, STOP TALKING! Ummm... I haven't been hungry lately, which is really unusal for me. OH and also...I'm going to California next week for my cousin's wedding so yeah the BEDA thing wouldn't have worked anyway. I got a new dress though, and it's PRETTYYY and shoes *sigh I love shoes! Well I think that's enough for today.
I love you all!
Ali
P.S. Shout out to everyone in the Skype chat... thanks for being awesome! WOO WOO
Skype chat quote of the day: everyone missing me in general :)"I MISSED YOU MORE!" "NO I MISSED HER MORE!"
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I Really Stink At This...Better Late Than Never :)
Hello everyone,
I do, I stink... I just completely stink.
Alright... I'm honestly afraid to reread whatever I wrote last night because I KNOW that it will probably be the most idiotic thing that I have ever read. Forgive me. I may forget it sometimes, and I like to think that I don't exactly act like it... but I am a teenage girl. So sometimes a little bit of that drama that I try my best to avoid seeps into my life. And yeah, I get a little bit caught up in it. I'm too busy (<---- this is silly teenage girl Ali talking, not the Ali that you guys are used to... I WILL TALK TO YOU GUYS SOON!) to go on Skype, I forget to blog, and I do have a tendency to make everything into a bigger deal than it actually is.
Well, the aforementioned "drama" (yes it is honestly so trivial that I had to put it in quotes) is the reason that I looked at my phone last night only to realize that it was 12:03 and I had yet to post my blog for the day... yeah. Well, I decided that the damage was done and I might as well just write it later instead of stressing about it then. Well, now it's 5:02... how do you think I feel about "waiting until later" or whatever my excuse was?? Yeah, not so great. So I wanted to apoligize to everyone. First, for having to read yesterdays (and todays) blog. Second, for not posting. Third, for well I don't know... you think of something!
Today I was planning on giving you a continuation on the craziness that started last night... which really got CRAZY soon after I posted my blog. But honestly, I realized how unimportant it is. I don't even want to think about silly stuff like that anymore, let alone bore you with it. Especially after reading Justines blog and seeing how insightful her posts are, and reading Kimmie's blog on who we want to be. Well, I'll tell you about the person who I DON'T want to be, the girl sitting at her laptop writing about silly things and worrying about boys and such. (Although, it IS kind of a big deal for me... because, honestly, boys don't like me) I want the things I say to really matter... and I'm kind of failing at that.
One thing I must ask is why IS drama so important to so many people? Personally, I would rather not be a part of it. But once you DO get caught up in the middle of something it can get kind of addicting. Sometimes it's hard to leave well enough alone, even when you know it's the right thing to do. So what is it about this obsession? Do people seek to feel better about their own lives by hearing about other people's troubles, is it (as it sometimes is for me) people living vicariously through the experiences of their friends, or is it something else? I know that many people have asked this... but still, I wonder. I have had a virtually drama free summer and now, a week before I go back to school (yes, that's right, a week) it starts up UGH.
So, I decided (after all of that) that I would be much better off writing about my day and just the silliness that goes on at camp. But now, looking back, I've already written an entire post about exactly what I said I was NOT going to write it about. Sorry, once again :)
Alright, I'll give you a little snippet of my day anyway...
In case you didn't know (you know for those of you who don't stalk me. Jessie and Allie, I'm looking at you...stalkers!) This summer I've been working as a camp counselor. I actually really love it. I've always loved working with kids, and kids (for some reason) just like me. Let me tell you, it makes the job a WHOLE lot easier for me. It has also been really great, because it is a Jewish camp. Although I'm not Jewish, I've learned a lot about Judaism. I've always been interested in different religions and it has been really cool for me to learn about. I've been eating kosher all summer, and I can now say a prayer before meals in Hebrew.
This week is color war at camp. Basically, the camp is split up into two teams (blue and white). And then the teans compete in different competitions in sports, spirit, and art. Of course no color war would be complete without some good old fashioned bribery of le judges :) Which is why I got up at 3:30 to finish baking two batches of cookies and frost them with white W's. In case you hadn't guessed... I'm on the white team! GO WHITE!! Well , I felt really guilty about not writing anything today... which is why it is not 5:25 and it is looking as though I will get less than 2 hours of sleep *sigh.
Does anyone remember that Bill Cosby show "Kids Say the Darndest Things?" Because that's what I feel like at camp a lot of the time! I mean come on, when you're surrounded by little kids I guess it's bound to happen. Sorry, that really had absolutelt no point exceot that little kids are annoying.
**Observation** I've decided than 3-4 (ans maybe 5th) grade is the BEST group to be a counselor of. Because the little kids need your absolute attention ALL OF THE TIME! And while adorable, they can also be very clingy... and it's hard to do your job when you have a 1st grader hanging off of you. It is also (not) a proven fact that while in 1st and 2nd grade little children have the attention span of a fly. This makes it hard for them to stay quiet, or pay attention for any period of time, and leads to much craziness and disorder! You may ask... well then why not the 6-8th graders? Another proven fact: Once kids enter middle school an overwhelming of them seem to think that they know EVERYTHING, and therefore do not have to listen. They talk back and, and...get you wet with disgusting water from the pond when you go canoeing!!! (Still holding a grudge for that) I still love both of these groups... BUT if I were to choose the best kids, it has to be 3-5th grade.
Alright, I'm getting tired (what a though, it's 5:34, I shouldn't be tiredd?) and I'm starting (starting? you've been doing this since you started typing Ali) to ramble. Before I COMPLETELY stop making sense... I'm going to go.
I love you all!
Ali
Favorite Skype chat quote of the day: BOOOO I never went on skype today :( I am very very very sorry... and I love you all!
P.S. If you want to punish me for my late post you are more than welcome! Go ahead and tell me what to do... it's fine I'll take it like a wo-man.
EDIT****
Alright I just read my post from yesterday and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought!! Todays is actually much more rambley. The big mistake in the other one was the autocorrect of my phone changing Skype to Stow... GRRRRR. Also there is a point that I meant to make that I left out of this post but... I have to leave SOMETHING to talk about ummm later today? Well that's all. BYE!
I do, I stink... I just completely stink.
Alright... I'm honestly afraid to reread whatever I wrote last night because I KNOW that it will probably be the most idiotic thing that I have ever read. Forgive me. I may forget it sometimes, and I like to think that I don't exactly act like it... but I am a teenage girl. So sometimes a little bit of that drama that I try my best to avoid seeps into my life. And yeah, I get a little bit caught up in it. I'm too busy (<---- this is silly teenage girl Ali talking, not the Ali that you guys are used to... I WILL TALK TO YOU GUYS SOON!) to go on Skype, I forget to blog, and I do have a tendency to make everything into a bigger deal than it actually is.
Well, the aforementioned "drama" (yes it is honestly so trivial that I had to put it in quotes) is the reason that I looked at my phone last night only to realize that it was 12:03 and I had yet to post my blog for the day... yeah. Well, I decided that the damage was done and I might as well just write it later instead of stressing about it then. Well, now it's 5:02... how do you think I feel about "waiting until later" or whatever my excuse was?? Yeah, not so great. So I wanted to apoligize to everyone. First, for having to read yesterdays (and todays) blog. Second, for not posting. Third, for well I don't know... you think of something!
Today I was planning on giving you a continuation on the craziness that started last night... which really got CRAZY soon after I posted my blog. But honestly, I realized how unimportant it is. I don't even want to think about silly stuff like that anymore, let alone bore you with it. Especially after reading Justines blog and seeing how insightful her posts are, and reading Kimmie's blog on who we want to be. Well, I'll tell you about the person who I DON'T want to be, the girl sitting at her laptop writing about silly things and worrying about boys and such. (Although, it IS kind of a big deal for me... because, honestly, boys don't like me) I want the things I say to really matter... and I'm kind of failing at that.
One thing I must ask is why IS drama so important to so many people? Personally, I would rather not be a part of it. But once you DO get caught up in the middle of something it can get kind of addicting. Sometimes it's hard to leave well enough alone, even when you know it's the right thing to do. So what is it about this obsession? Do people seek to feel better about their own lives by hearing about other people's troubles, is it (as it sometimes is for me) people living vicariously through the experiences of their friends, or is it something else? I know that many people have asked this... but still, I wonder. I have had a virtually drama free summer and now, a week before I go back to school (yes, that's right, a week) it starts up UGH.
So, I decided (after all of that) that I would be much better off writing about my day and just the silliness that goes on at camp. But now, looking back, I've already written an entire post about exactly what I said I was NOT going to write it about. Sorry, once again :)
Alright, I'll give you a little snippet of my day anyway...
In case you didn't know (you know for those of you who don't stalk me. Jessie and Allie, I'm looking at you...stalkers!) This summer I've been working as a camp counselor. I actually really love it. I've always loved working with kids, and kids (for some reason) just like me. Let me tell you, it makes the job a WHOLE lot easier for me. It has also been really great, because it is a Jewish camp. Although I'm not Jewish, I've learned a lot about Judaism. I've always been interested in different religions and it has been really cool for me to learn about. I've been eating kosher all summer, and I can now say a prayer before meals in Hebrew.
This week is color war at camp. Basically, the camp is split up into two teams (blue and white). And then the teans compete in different competitions in sports, spirit, and art. Of course no color war would be complete without some good old fashioned bribery of le judges :) Which is why I got up at 3:30 to finish baking two batches of cookies and frost them with white W's. In case you hadn't guessed... I'm on the white team! GO WHITE!! Well , I felt really guilty about not writing anything today... which is why it is not 5:25 and it is looking as though I will get less than 2 hours of sleep *sigh.
Does anyone remember that Bill Cosby show "Kids Say the Darndest Things?" Because that's what I feel like at camp a lot of the time! I mean come on, when you're surrounded by little kids I guess it's bound to happen. Sorry, that really had absolutelt no point exceot that little kids are annoying.
**Observation** I've decided than 3-4 (ans maybe 5th) grade is the BEST group to be a counselor of. Because the little kids need your absolute attention ALL OF THE TIME! And while adorable, they can also be very clingy... and it's hard to do your job when you have a 1st grader hanging off of you. It is also (not) a proven fact that while in 1st and 2nd grade little children have the attention span of a fly. This makes it hard for them to stay quiet, or pay attention for any period of time, and leads to much craziness and disorder! You may ask... well then why not the 6-8th graders? Another proven fact: Once kids enter middle school an overwhelming of them seem to think that they know EVERYTHING, and therefore do not have to listen. They talk back and, and...get you wet with disgusting water from the pond when you go canoeing!!! (Still holding a grudge for that) I still love both of these groups... BUT if I were to choose the best kids, it has to be 3-5th grade.
Alright, I'm getting tired (what a though, it's 5:34, I shouldn't be tiredd?) and I'm starting (starting? you've been doing this since you started typing Ali) to ramble. Before I COMPLETELY stop making sense... I'm going to go.
I love you all!
Ali
Favorite Skype chat quote of the day: BOOOO I never went on skype today :( I am very very very sorry... and I love you all!
P.S. If you want to punish me for my late post you are more than welcome! Go ahead and tell me what to do... it's fine I'll take it like a wo-man.
EDIT****
Alright I just read my post from yesterday and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought!! Todays is actually much more rambley. The big mistake in the other one was the autocorrect of my phone changing Skype to Stow... GRRRRR. Also there is a point that I meant to make that I left out of this post but... I have to leave SOMETHING to talk about ummm later today? Well that's all. BYE!
Monday, August 2, 2010
I'm a good girl...
Alright, so I started off the day thinking that it would be boring and I ended it bored... yet so much stuff happened in between.
For those of you who don't know I work as a camp counselor. I am also a goody goody... yes I admit it I'm a good girl all the way. In an effort to expand my boundaries and get over my fear of meeting people IRL I hung out with some of my fellow counselors after work. We went to get something to eat, which was fine. I actually had fun... it was all going great and I was pretty proud of myself. Then my friend and I got invited to a party. I thought well, I'm already expanding my boundaries so I might as well...
Then the lies started... I had to tell my mom that I was staying at my friend's house, she said that we were staying at another friend's house l, and actually we were staying at another (boy) counselor's house. Ugh. I thought, you know I can handle this, it will be fine!
The party... well as our friend put it "You go to this party if you want to drink, smoke, or get laid" well I didn't want to do any if those soo...
We got to the party and it was exactly the kind of party he described. I had absolutely NO fun. And to make it worse I saw someone I know. Someone who knows I'm a "good girl" and who's immediate response to seeing me was, "OMG!? Ali Mathews, at a party?" I'm sure everyone will know about it by tomorrow, and they will interrogate me.
I didn't drink, smoke, or do anything with boys... so yeah it sucked. But I was surrounded by it, so I'm proud of myself. We left early.
I decided that I like being good. Because really if you need to do that stuff to have fun... well it's just not for me.
Sorry. This is long, rambling, and my point got lost somewhere in between my people skills and the sucky party. Give me a break I'm finishing this 3 minutes from 12... and you do want me to post today right? I need to stop talking...
I love you all!
Ali
Stow chat quote of the day: "I AM RAVENCLAW HEAR ME... chirp?"
For those of you who don't know I work as a camp counselor. I am also a goody goody... yes I admit it I'm a good girl all the way. In an effort to expand my boundaries and get over my fear of meeting people IRL I hung out with some of my fellow counselors after work. We went to get something to eat, which was fine. I actually had fun... it was all going great and I was pretty proud of myself. Then my friend and I got invited to a party. I thought well, I'm already expanding my boundaries so I might as well...
Then the lies started... I had to tell my mom that I was staying at my friend's house, she said that we were staying at another friend's house l, and actually we were staying at another (boy) counselor's house. Ugh. I thought, you know I can handle this, it will be fine!
The party... well as our friend put it "You go to this party if you want to drink, smoke, or get laid" well I didn't want to do any if those soo...
We got to the party and it was exactly the kind of party he described. I had absolutely NO fun. And to make it worse I saw someone I know. Someone who knows I'm a "good girl" and who's immediate response to seeing me was, "OMG!? Ali Mathews, at a party?" I'm sure everyone will know about it by tomorrow, and they will interrogate me.
I didn't drink, smoke, or do anything with boys... so yeah it sucked. But I was surrounded by it, so I'm proud of myself. We left early.
I decided that I like being good. Because really if you need to do that stuff to have fun... well it's just not for me.
Sorry. This is long, rambling, and my point got lost somewhere in between my people skills and the sucky party. Give me a break I'm finishing this 3 minutes from 12... and you do want me to post today right? I need to stop talking...
I love you all!
Ali
Stow chat quote of the day: "I AM RAVENCLAW HEAR ME... chirp?"
Sunday, August 1, 2010
BEDA Here We Go!
What have I gotten myself into?
Alright, we're one day into BEDA and I already have nothing to blog about... things aren't looking too great for the rest of the month. Well here goes nothing...
For my first post I'm going to talk about the thing that is taking up a lot of my life right now (as if it doesn't always). And that thing is... Harry Potter :) I've loved Harry Potter since the first movie came out. It has always been a big part of my life. I've reread every book at least 3 or 4 times (some I'm pretty sure I've read 6 or 7), I've gone to all the midnight release parties, frequented all of the major Harry Potter sites, and I have been known to wave around a wand and draw a scar on my forehead. But, it wan't until after the last book came out that I really began to get involved in the fandom. I didn't want it to be over... and it had become such a big part of my life at that point that I don't know what I would have done if I couldn't find a way to stop it from ending.
Thank God, I found Pottercast. One day I was at The Leaky Cauldron website and I saw a button to listen to the latest "Pottercast" and from that point on I was hooked! This led me to Wizard Rock, fanfiction, and The Harry Potter Alliance. (Sorry for the rambling, but Harry Potter is a big part of who I am and I just can't help it!) If you're reading this blog you probably already know that the HPA won $250,000 in the Chase Community Giving contest. Well, I was on temporary staff and I can literally say that joining was one of the best ideas that I ever had. Because within a few weeks I went from having no friends who really understood me to having a group of people who DO understand me (and who are happy to talk about Harry Potter for hours). The HPA brought this group of people together, of all different ages, and put us in a Skype chat so that we could encourage eachother to get votes. Now, almost 3 weeks since HPAFTW ended, I still Skype with the same people every night. I can rant and vent to them, they let me ramble on incoherently, we have too many inside joke to count, and at this point I believe I have a sister who is also married to our mom, an aunt who is also my step-daughter, a grandmommy and gradpapa, another crazy aunt, and a cousin who is a nun... oh and did I mention that my daddy is Voldemort?
I guess what I'm trying to say is thanks. Thanks to Jo Rowling for writing these amazing books, that have helped me to discover myself and have become such a huge part of my life. Thanks to Melissa, John, Frak, and Sue (who I miss dearly) from Pottercast for helping me to become more involved in the fandom and giving me something to look forward too again. Thanks to all the wizard rockers who have giving us the best music EVER to be created. Thanks to Kate, Andrew, and everyone at the HPA for helping me to find people who just GET IT, and who are just as nerdy and KREEPY as I am. And especially THANK YOU to everyone I have met through HPAFTW. Thank you for getting me, thank you for being huge nerds and not being afraid to show it, thank you for being complete KREEPERS, just thanks. :)
Well that should be enough for a while. I love Harry Potter, and if you're even going to attempt to understand me you need to know that. My kids will probably all end up with middle names related to the Harry Potter books and be made fun of relentlessly for it... on secong thought I'll just stick to the normal names like Lily and James and leave Ginevra and Draco out of it.
I love you all!
Ali
P.S. To all my kreepers... you guys are crazy, I love you!
P.P.S. I'm taking Justine's lead here... please comment! Comments are fun and pretty... they make me happy! I really don't care what you say. If you want you can say "Oh Ali, all you do is ramble about Harry Potter... I'm unfollowing you (which would bring me down to 2 followers... hehehe)" or "Hi." Although that last one kind of stinks as a comment... just saying :)
Skype chat quote of the day: "Because a full sized elephant can't fit into the nunnery!"
Alright, we're one day into BEDA and I already have nothing to blog about... things aren't looking too great for the rest of the month. Well here goes nothing...
For my first post I'm going to talk about the thing that is taking up a lot of my life right now (as if it doesn't always). And that thing is... Harry Potter :) I've loved Harry Potter since the first movie came out. It has always been a big part of my life. I've reread every book at least 3 or 4 times (some I'm pretty sure I've read 6 or 7), I've gone to all the midnight release parties, frequented all of the major Harry Potter sites, and I have been known to wave around a wand and draw a scar on my forehead. But, it wan't until after the last book came out that I really began to get involved in the fandom. I didn't want it to be over... and it had become such a big part of my life at that point that I don't know what I would have done if I couldn't find a way to stop it from ending.
Thank God, I found Pottercast. One day I was at The Leaky Cauldron website and I saw a button to listen to the latest "Pottercast" and from that point on I was hooked! This led me to Wizard Rock, fanfiction, and The Harry Potter Alliance. (Sorry for the rambling, but Harry Potter is a big part of who I am and I just can't help it!) If you're reading this blog you probably already know that the HPA won $250,000 in the Chase Community Giving contest. Well, I was on temporary staff and I can literally say that joining was one of the best ideas that I ever had. Because within a few weeks I went from having no friends who really understood me to having a group of people who DO understand me (and who are happy to talk about Harry Potter for hours). The HPA brought this group of people together, of all different ages, and put us in a Skype chat so that we could encourage eachother to get votes. Now, almost 3 weeks since HPAFTW ended, I still Skype with the same people every night. I can rant and vent to them, they let me ramble on incoherently, we have too many inside joke to count, and at this point I believe I have a sister who is also married to our mom, an aunt who is also my step-daughter, a grandmommy and gradpapa, another crazy aunt, and a cousin who is a nun... oh and did I mention that my daddy is Voldemort?
I guess what I'm trying to say is thanks. Thanks to Jo Rowling for writing these amazing books, that have helped me to discover myself and have become such a huge part of my life. Thanks to Melissa, John, Frak, and Sue (who I miss dearly) from Pottercast for helping me to become more involved in the fandom and giving me something to look forward too again. Thanks to all the wizard rockers who have giving us the best music EVER to be created. Thanks to Kate, Andrew, and everyone at the HPA for helping me to find people who just GET IT, and who are just as nerdy and KREEPY as I am. And especially THANK YOU to everyone I have met through HPAFTW. Thank you for getting me, thank you for being huge nerds and not being afraid to show it, thank you for being complete KREEPERS, just thanks. :)
Well that should be enough for a while. I love Harry Potter, and if you're even going to attempt to understand me you need to know that. My kids will probably all end up with middle names related to the Harry Potter books and be made fun of relentlessly for it... on secong thought I'll just stick to the normal names like Lily and James and leave Ginevra and Draco out of it.
I love you all!
Ali
P.S. To all my kreepers... you guys are crazy, I love you!
P.P.S. I'm taking Justine's lead here... please comment! Comments are fun and pretty... they make me happy! I really don't care what you say. If you want you can say "Oh Ali, all you do is ramble about Harry Potter... I'm unfollowing you (which would bring me down to 2 followers... hehehe)" or "Hi." Although that last one kind of stinks as a comment... just saying :)
Skype chat quote of the day: "Because a full sized elephant can't fit into the nunnery!"
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